Wednesday, March 27, 2013

Holy What?


     This is Holy Week......one of my very favorite weeks of the year.  This is the week that reminds me why I am a Jesus Freak!!  Although this is a solemn week, what it leads up to is life changing.  The problem is that this is often just another week that passes us by.  We are given the gift of the Triduum, the three holy days before Easter, but we let them pass by without even noticing their beauty.  I guess there were many years when I did the same too, but not anymore.  I look more forward to the three days before Easter, than I actually do Easter Sunday!  (Am I allowed even to say that?)   Let me explain.

     Holy Thursday-  The Holy Thursday Mass is my favorite Mass out of the entire Liturgical year.  Watching the priest wash the feet of 12 parishioners is absolutely amazing.  I was lucky enough to have my feet washed one year and it was so emotional for me.  The focus of this Mass is servant hood.  Jesus taught his followers an important lesson the night that He washed their feet.  As Pope Francis said in his Inaugural Mass homily, "Authentic power is service."  That is the exact message that Jesus taught the night of the Last Supper.  We are called to serve others.  This world makes us think that it has to be "all about us!"  As Jesus washed his disciples feet, He reminded us that it is in serving others that we truly become one with Him.  Then Jesus challenges us when He says in John 13:15, "So that as I have done for you, you should also do."  This is the beauty of this Mass. It empowers us to go out and serve and reminds us that even our Lord and Savior was humble enough to wash the feet of his disciples.  Now, it is our turn!

     Good Friday-  This day deserves way more appreciation than we give it.  This is the day that Jesus died on the cross FOR US.  This is the only day during the Liturgical year that Mass is not celebrated.  What does take place though is beautiful.  Churches will open their doors in the afternoon hours and many will take part in a "veneration of the cross" service.  This is one of the most humbling things I witness all year.  One by one, we walk up onto the altar and kiss the feet of Jesus on the cross.  No one is looking to see what you are wearing, no one is laughing at you as you walk to the altar.....the focus is on JESUS.  Complete love.  Complete reverence.  Complete focus on Jesus.  The way it should be.  This day should never pass without giving at least part of the day to the one who gave His life for us.

     Holy Saturday-  This is the in-between day.  He has died and we wait for Him to rise!  But there is also so much beauty in this day and it comes at the Easter Vigil Mass.  This Mass begins with a fire outside, representing that Jesus is the light of the world.  Each person lights their own candle and enters the church lighting it up as they enter.  You can see the light of Christ radiating throughout the Church.  Then, new members are welcomed into the Church.  Some are baptized, others are confirmed, but all are clothed in the love of Christ.  Many miss this Mass because oftentimes it is 2-3 hours long.  We may see a movie that is that long or go to a concert that is that long, but rarely will we ever go to a Mass that is that long. We wait for many things, but sometimes just not the right things!  This Mass reminds us that there is such beauty in patiently waiting...especially for the light of Christ to enter our hearts!

     THEN..........The Tridumm had ended and EASTER IS HERE!!!  HE IS RISEN!  

     The beauty of the Triduum and the joy of Easter can be transforming if you allow these days to truly make a difference in your life. I encourage all of you to make this week matter.  Use this week to draw closer to God and to develop and even deeper relationship with Him.  So, what can we learn during Holy Week?

1.  Serve others
2. Focus on Jesus, not on yourself
3.  Wait patiently for the light of Christ

Sounds great to me!!  

Have a blessed and Holy Holy Week and EASTER!!


P.S.  Don't let the rabbit make you foget about the RESURRECTION!!!








Sunday, March 24, 2013

Only This I Want


     Today is Palm Sunday.  This was the Sunday that Zack used to love the most when he was little because he liked that they handed him a "toy" to play with when he got to Mass.  Most kids (and some adults!) love playing with the palms during Mass and they often make crosses out of the palms that they were given as they entered.  Adults however know that this is the week for "the LONG reading!"  They know that their kids might be occupied by the palms, but they can already feel their back hurting from standing so long and they begin dreading this Mass as soon as they realize it is near.  Me, however.....I love it.  I absolutely love Palm Sunday!  Why?  Because I want so desperately to know my Lord.  I want to join in His suffering, so I can fully appreciate the sacrifice that He made for me  Just like the song that we sang today says, "Only this I want but to know the Lord, and to bear His cross so to wear the crown He wore." 

     During Palm Sunday Mass, we read the Passion of our Lord Jesus Christ.  We read every moment that led Him to the cross.....from Gethsemane to Calvary.  I love taking this journey with Him.  Along the way, I place myself in His place.  How does my current life fit into the Passion of the Lord?  I want to be a part of His journey, not just to read about it.  So when we are reading this in Mass, I am thinking of my own life and uniting my life with His. 

     Jesus goes to the Garden of Gethsemane to pray.  He cries out to His Father asking Him to let this cup pass from Him.  He is  filled with fear and begging His Father to help Him, but He also knows that it is about His Father's will not His.  My life is filled with fear right now.  I feel like I am on my knees in the Garden asking God to save my father.  I am not just asking God to heal my dad, I am begging Him.  Is there something in your life causing you fear?  Are you on your knees, like Jesus was, begging for God to help you?

Jesus- you felt the fear, but you trusted anyway.  Help us to be as strong as you were, Jesus.  Help us to accept God's will even when it is hard to do so.

     Many times during His journey, Jesus was failed by the people He loved the most.  His apostles fell asleep, Peter denied and Judas betrayed.  The crowds mocked Him  and soldiers beat Him.  Things were not going Jesus' way and there wasn't anything He could do about it.  He felt alone and abandoned.  My life doesn't often go the way I plan.  Things don't always go MY way. Especially right now, I feel alone and abandoned by God and I wonder what His plan is for me.  What in your life isn't going as you had planned?  Do you feel alone and abandoned by God too?  Are you wondering what His plan is for you?

Jesus- Help us not to lose hope when life doesn't go our way.  Help us to realize that you are never far from us and that you love us unconditionally.  Help us to understand that your will is greater than ours.

     These are just a few of the ways that I joined with Jesus today as the Passion was being read in Mass.  I joined my life with His.  I made the journey with Him.........I walked with Him and prayed TO Him for help.  So tonight, I ask that you do the same. If you did not read the Passion this way today, re-read it!  Journey with Him, walk with Him and pray To Him for help.  For it is in joining Him on this journey that we begin to truly know Him.  

And I know for me............"Only this I want but to know the Lord, and to bear His cross so to wear the crown He wore."

     

     

   




Thursday, March 21, 2013

Worn

     Ok...so the other day I posted about how I know that God has a plan and that I need to trust in Him.  Well, today is one of those days when it just isn't that easy.  Sometimes, life is hard.  No, sometimes life is just down right cruel.  You pray and you pray for something to get better and it doesn't.  Yet scripture tells us in Matthew 7:7 "Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you."   You serve God in your life on a daily basis, but the pain still comes your way.  What about Romans 8:28 that tells us that "All things work together for good to those who love God."  What is good about cancer?  What is good about watching your dad fight the hardest battle of his life, only to watch it get harder, not easier?  Nothing is good about this.  Am I supposed to trust Him. Yes.  Am I supposed to know that His plan is greater than mine?  Yes.  Am I supposed to believe that His will will be done.  Yes.  BUT.....I don't want to do that right now.  I want my dad to get better. I'm not strong enough to trust right now.  I feel weaker than ever.  I'm not wanting to hear He has a plan.  I want MY plan to be His plan.  I want Him to save my dad.
     So tonight, I write this blog broken, and worn.  Tired of the hurt and the pain and the struggle.  I know what I need to do and I know that I will get there....but not tonight.  Tonight, I cry.  Tonight, I hurt.  Tonight, I get on my knees and cry out to the Lord, "My God, My God, why have you abandoned me?"



Tuesday, March 19, 2013

Pope Francis' Inagural Mass Homily

     Today was Pope Francis' inaugural Mass and his homily was absolutely beautiful.  It is long, but I encourage all of you to read it.  My words can't even begin to express what he did, so my blog today is his homily.
 
Dear Brothers and Sisters,
I thank the Lord that I can celebrate this Holy Mass for the inauguration of my Petrine ministry on the solemnity of St Joseph, the spouse of the Virgin Mary and the patron of the universal Church. It is a significant coincidence, and it is also the name-day of my venerable predecessor: we are close to him with our prayers, full of affection and gratitude.
I offer a warm greeting to my brother cardinals and bishops, the priests, deacons, men and women religious, and all the lay faithful. I thank the representatives of the other churches and ecclesial communities, as well as the representatives of the Jewish community and the other religious communities, for their presence. My cordial greetings go to the Heads of State and Government, the members of the official Delegations from many countries throughout the world, and the Diplomatic Corps.
In the Gospel we heard that “Joseph did as the angel of the Lord commanded him and took Mary as his wife” (Mt 1:24). These words already point to the mission which God entrusts to Joseph: he is to be the custos, the protector. The protector of whom? Of Mary and Jesus; but this protection is then extended to the Church, as Blessed John Paul II pointed out: “Just as Saint Joseph took loving care of Mary and gladly dedicated himself to Jesus Christ’s upbringing, he likewise watches over and protects Christ’s Mystical Body, the Church, of which the Virgin Mary is the exemplar and model” (Redemptoris Custos, 1).
How does Joseph exercise his role as protector? Discreetly, humbly and silently, but with an unfailing presence and utter fidelity, even when he finds it hard to understand. From the time of his betrothal to Mary until the finding of the twelve-year-old Jesus in the Temple of Jerusalem, he is there at every moment with loving care. As the spouse of Mary, he is at her side in good times and bad, on the journey to Bethlehem for the census and in the anxious and joyful hours when she gave birth; amid the drama of the flight into Egypt and during the frantic search for their child in the Temple; and later in the day-to-day life of the home of Nazareth, in the workshop where he taught his trade to Jesus.
How does Joseph respond to his calling to be the protector of Mary, Jesus and the Church? By being constantly attentive to God, open to the signs of God’s presence and receptive to God’s plans, and not simply to his own. This is what God asked of David, as we heard in the first reading. God does not want a house built by men, but faithfulness to his word, to his plan. It is God himself who builds the house, but from living stones sealed by his Spirit. Joseph is a “protector” because he is able to hear God’s voice and be guided by his will; and for this reason he is all the more sensitive to the persons entrusted to his safekeeping. He can look at things realistically, he is in touch with his surroundings, he can make truly wise decisions. In him, dear friends, we learn how to respond to God’s call, readily and willingly, but we also see the core of the Christian vocation, which is Christ! Let us protect Christ in our lives, so that we can protect others, so that we can protect creation!
The vocation of being a “protector”, however, is not just something involving us Christians alone; it also has a prior dimension which is simply human, involving everyone. It means protecting all creation, the beauty of the created world, as the Book of Genesis tells us and as Saint Francis of Assisi showed us. It means respecting each of God’s creatures and respecting the environment in which we live. It means protecting people, showing loving concern for each and every person, especially children, the elderly, those in need, who are often the last we think about. It means caring for one another in our families: husbands and wives first protect one another, and then, as parents, they care for their children, and children themselves, in time, protect their parents. It means building sincere friendships in which we protect one another in trust, respect, and goodness. In the end, everything has been entrusted to our protection, and all of us are responsible for it. Be protectors of God’s gifts!
Whenever human beings fail to live up to this responsibility, whenever we fail to care for creation and for our brothers and sisters, the way is opened to destruction and hearts are hardened. Tragically, in every period of history there are “Herods” who plot death, wreak havoc, and mar the countenance of men and women.
Please, I would like to ask all those who have positions of responsibility in economic, political and social life, and all men and women of goodwill: let us be “protectors” of creation, protectors of God’s plan inscribed in nature, protectors of one another and of the environment. Let us not allow omens of destruction and death to accompany the advance of this world! But to be “protectors”, we also have to keep watch over ourselves! Let us not forget that hatred, envy and pride defile our lives! Being protectors, then, also means keeping watch over our emotions, over our hearts, because they are the seat of good and evil intentions: intentions that build up and tear down! We must not be afraid of goodness or even tenderness!
Here I would add one more thing: caring, protecting, demands goodness, it calls for a certain tenderness. In the Gospels, Saint Joseph appears as a strong and courageous man, a working man, yet in his heart we see great tenderness, which is not the virtue of the weak but rather a sign of strength of spirit and a capacity for concern, for compassion, for genuine openness to others, for love. We must not be afraid of goodness, of tenderness!
Today, together with the feast of Saint Joseph, we are celebrating the beginning of the ministry of the new Bishop of Rome, the Successor of Peter, which also involves a certain power. Certainly, Jesus Christ conferred power upon Peter, but what sort of power was it? Jesus’ three questions to Peter about love are followed by three commands: feed my lambs, feed my sheep. Let us never forget that authentic power is service, and that the Pope too, when exercising power, must enter ever more fully into that service which has its radiant culmination on the Cross. He must be inspired by the lowly, concrete and faithful service which marked Saint Joseph and, like him, he must open his arms to protect all of God’s people and embrace with tender affection the whole of humanity, especially the poorest, the weakest, the least important, those whom Matthew lists in the final judgment on love: the hungry, the thirsty, the stranger, the naked, the sick and those in prison (cf. Mt 25:31-46). Only those who serve with love are able to protect!
In the second reading, Saint Paul speaks of Abraham, who, “hoping against hope, believed” (Rom 4:18). Hoping against hope! Today too, amid so much darkness, we need to see the light of hope and to be men and women who bring hope to others. To protect creation, to protect every man and every woman, to look upon them with tenderness and love, is to open up a horizon of hope; it is to let a shaft of light break through the heavy clouds; it is to bring the warmth of hope! For believers, for us Christians, like Abraham, like Saint Joseph, the hope that we bring is set against the horizon of God, which has opened up before us in Christ. It is a hope built on the rock which is God.
To protect Jesus with Mary, to protect the whole of creation, to protect each person, especially the poorest, to protect ourselves: this is a service that the Bishop of Rome is called to carry out, yet one to which all of us are called, so that the star of hope will shine brightly. Let us protect with love all that God has given us!
I implore the intercession of the Virgin Mary, Saint Joseph, Saints Peter and Paul, and Saint Francis, that the Holy Spirit may accompany my ministry, and I ask all of you to pray for me!
Amen.

Sunday, March 17, 2013

Stones

     The past few years for my family have not been easy.  Let me just make a list and explain to you what the past few years have been like.

August 2010- My brain tumor discovered and first surgery followed by radiation
January 2011- My second surgery
August 2012- Dad diagnosed with lung cancer
November 2012- Dad's lung surgery followed by chemo and radiation
December 2013- Aunt diagnosed with ovarian cancer
September 2013- Dad's cancer returns- inoperable- Chemo and radiation begin again
March 2013- Aunt diagnosed with breast cancer
 
     As a woman of God, I found myself asking God over and over, "What are you doing to my family, Lord?  Why us, Lord?"  I found myself wondering why he would let this happen to me and my family.  I try so hard every day to serve Him and to live a life pleasing to Him. I felt like I didn't deserve the hardships that were falling on my family.  Then, I read this Sunday's gospel about the woman accused of adultery.  People were lined up around her ready to stone her to death for her crime.  But Jesus had other plans.
 
"Let the one without sin cast the first stone."
 
     Jesus didn't ask the woman if she committed adultery.  He didn't ask her to list the things she had done for Him or the things that she failed to do.  He didn't ask the people ready to throw their stones to list how they had served Him or failed to serve Him either.  In one simple statement He reminded us that we are the same....."We have all sinned and fallen short of the glory of God."  (Romans 3:23.)  The woman was a sinner, yet so were the ones casting the stone.  God looks at all of us as his Children.  Children who have made mistakes, but children that He will continue to love regardless of those mistakes. 
 
    Today's gospel opened my eyes to a different way of thinking.   I have been asking "Why me, Lord?" but I guess I should be asking, "Why not me, Lord?"  I too am a sinner.  I do not deserve the goodness that God gives me on a daily basis.  The "stones" of life are going to come my way, but I must trust that my God has a plan.  In Proverbs 3:5-6 it says, "Trust in the Lord with all your heart.  Lean not on your own understanding.  In all your ways, acknowledge Him and He will makes your paths straight."   None of us deserve God's goodness.  We don't deserve His love, His kindness, His forgiveness or the  good that happen to us each and every day.  But just as He loved the woman, He loves us and His plan will be revealed to us in time. 
 
     So, when the stones of life come my way, I must remember that I am loved and that my God has a plan.  It is not for me to try to understand, but for me to just trust.  This isn't easy.  The stones of my life have been big boulders lately, but my God is the rock whom I build my life upon and I know that with Him.....all things are possible.
 
I trust you, Lord. 

 
 

 
 
 

 
 
 
 


Wednesday, March 13, 2013

Habemus Papam!


     WOW!  What a day!  I can't even begin to explain the excitement that filled this day. As a Catholic, I have been glued to the TV and have been anxiously waiting to see the white smoke emerge from the chimney.  What I didn't expect was the emotion to follow!  When I realized that it was indeed white smoke, I jumped off of my couch as if the Steelers had just won the Super Bowl!  I  was alone in my house and was disappointed that I didn't have anyone to share this momentous occasion with!  I could feel the butterflies in my stomach as I waited, like many of you, to see our new Pope walk out onto the balcony of St. Peter's Basilica for all to see.  When he finally stepped onto the balcony, tears filled my eyes as I watched him stand there absolutely mesmerized.  It took him quite a while to speak, but when he did.......WOW!  The first thing our new Pope did was bow his head and ask US to pray for HIM!  Zack and I, in our house in Bridgeville Pa, bowed our heads and prayed for him, just like many of you probably did too.  The thousands of people in St. Peter's Square were silent...all praying for our new leader.  I will never forget that moment for as long as I live.  Catholic or not, that was a powerful moment. 
     Over the past few weeks, I have had so many questions about the process to elect our Pope and why I believe in the Catholic faith so deeply.  Today was the answer.  Today, as I watched Pope Francis accept the task of being the representation of Christ on earth, I was beaming with pride.    He is saying "YES" for me.....for you....for the 1.2 billions of Catholics in this world.  Why do I love this faith so much?  Because I have worked hard to understand it......I love the Traditions behind it, the rituals within it and the people who are a part of it.  Flawed?  Yes?  Confusing?  At times.  But, to me, it is my faith.  It is how I chose to serve and follow Jesus Christ.  I feel blessed to have a Pope as my leader, Bishops and Priests as my teachers and faithful followers to act as companions with me on my journey.
 
     Pope Francis........PRAY FOR US!!
    

Saturday, March 9, 2013

Lost and Found!


     Well, it has been a week since my last Lenten post.  I have a very good excuse though and it fits perfectly into my blog post for the day.  Let me explain by first blaming my sister!  You see, she introduced me to a TV show last week called Downton Abbey.  She told me that I had to watch it and that I would love it.  It was already in season three, so in order to catch up, I had to watch three full seasons.  After watching episode one, I was hooked!  19 episodes later, I have finally stopped to write a blog!  I have wasted my entire week watching episode after episode.  Laundry?  Nope.....episode 5 to watch!  Dinner?  Nope.  Episode 8 is waiting!  Write my blog?  Nope.  Season two is starting!  I am addicted!!  But, what has happened in the meantime is my Lenten journey has stopped.  I was doing so well.  I was focused.  I was spending more time in prayer, I was reading more spiritual books, I was working on my Lenten blogs......then all of a sudden....in the midst of my 40 days in the desert, my temptation came in the form of a TV show. (and my sister!!)  I became lost in the world of Lords and Ladies on the English frontier!!
     So, how does this relate to this Sunday's gospel?  This week, we read about the Prodigal Son.  The son who asked his father for his inheritance, left home and squandered away every penny of it.  The son who realized his mistake and went home begging to be forgiven.  The son who was lost, but then was found.  That son......is me too.  I was lost......lost in  a show that got in the way of my 40 day journey.  But today, I return to the Lord asking to be forgiven and hoping that the rest of my Lenten journey can be successful.  I was lost, but now I am found.
     The Prodigal Son is also like all of us.  We allow things to take our focus off of God.  We get distracted.  We get lost.  We all have our "Downton Abbey" distractions....what is yours?  What is getting in your way of putting God first this Lenten season?  Whatever it is, return home.  Just like the father in the parable of the Prodigal Son was waiting for his son's return, God is waiting for our return.  His arms are open and He can't wait for our focus to be on Him again.  He forgives us for getting distracted, and He welcomes us home once again.  He always will. 

     So, are you lost, but ready to be found?  I was, but it feels good to be back!!

Sunday, March 3, 2013

Excuses!

     Moses.  I love Moses.  He is one of my favorite people in the Old Testament. God had a plan for Moses, but it took some convincing for Moses to agree to that plan.  I mean, God had to appear in the form of a burning bush to get his attention!  Our God was pretty creative!  He knew He had to be if He wanted Moses to take him seriously.  So, why do I like Moses so much?  Because he was just like US!!

     First of all, Moses was called by God, but tried everything possible to get out of it!  He told God that he stuttered, but God told Him not to worry about his words for they would be guided by God.  He said he couldn't do it alone, so God allowed his brother Joshua to join him on the journey.  He said that the people wouldn't listen to him, but God allowed Moses to perform three miracles to convince them.  He had all the excuses, but God had all the answers! Why?  Because through Moses' imperfections, God showed how mighty He was!

     We are just like this, aren't we?  God calls us all to serve Him, yet we answer Him with so many excuses.  

I just don't have the time, God.  I'm so busy.
I'm not good enough to serve you Lord.  I've made too many mistakes.
If I follow you Lord, people might make fun of me.

     Excuses, excuses, excuses!  Just like Moses, we try everything to get out of it.  And just like God, He tells us that He will guide us, that He won't leave us alone and that He will work miracles through us if we let Him.

     IF WE LET HIM.  That is the secret to true conversion.  He has called us.  He has a plan for us.  He wants to use us.  Now, it's our turn to stop with the excuses and Moses up!  (Get it?  Instead of man up...I said Moses up!  Good one, Huh?) 

     WHY?  Because through OUR imperfections, God can show how mighty He is!  LET HIM!!!